El Lizard Birth and the Equinox

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I don’t like Historian David Starkey’s style of delivery, but I don’t have to do I? That is one of the joys of having a free mind, being able to make one’s own decisions. David Starkey is without doubt a knowledgeable man on his chosen subject, he also knows how to put his foot in it. In other words, not mincing his words and perhaps speaking before thinking things through, perhaps he has no filter. This having no filter is one of the traits of having ADHD, which is something I would not wish visited on anyone and would not swap for anything, does that make any sense? I have been looking for jobs and new work a fair bit recently and am now working again, happily I am avoiding anything to do with food and shops, I don’t even speak to too many people. Lady Luck has smiled upon me, I have decent hours as well.

In case you are wondering why I mentioned David Starkey, I was listening to his documentary on Elizabeth 1st hence El Lizard Birth and all the rest of it. My job is quite intense and i sweat bucket loads, plus there are plenty of stair cases to negotiate. The nitrile gloves area tit to get on and fill with sweat which splashes everywhere when they are taken off. never mind I am happy to be working, it is worthwhile and for the common good I am glad to serving the greater community. the Fruit Flies are a pain in the arse, they love the smell of home brew (of which I have loads) perhaps if i pout them a blow of the stuff they will drown and save me the fag of spraying them with poison.

I am considering moving my financial interests to another provider, my current people are pretty crap, they close all their high street branches and their website is always broken. They are Cunts, their values are based around Socialist thinking and Socialism begets nothing but ill. Trust me, I have lived in a Socialist country and visited several more. I shall put my money that has branches on the high street, with people you can speak to.

I have been doing more painting and picking up a paint brush is not quite is daunting any more. I hope it continues for a long time, as my studies, and writing. The Home brew wine, in this case, Fig, Rhubarb and Plum is getting on my tits. The noise it is making is unbelievable I wonder what the end product will taste like. I want to bottle up the new Rhubarb wine soon, though to do that a host of bottles will be required. I want to design some labels and pass it off on unsuspecting relatives and friends. I shall drink the rest in due course.

WORDS AND PICTURES

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Twenty years ago I was sat down watching the box and saw what a bunch of mad people did. Whether it was a bunch militant Arabs, or psychopathic elites and their lackies it does not matter. What we ought remember is, those who died, how the state of the world has changed since then. Finally what human beings are capable of, when their ego’s get out of hand and they are given too much power and money.

Other news now. The weather has been quite pleasant these last days and I have compelled myself to a whole lot of things. Mostly gardening, a large amount of gardening. Having got a whole load of stuff done outside, it is now time to do a whole lot of stuff inside. This inside stuff includes writing blogs, preparing fruit for turning into wine and making my excuses to the job centre. I long for the day, when I no longer have to claim govt. support and relish telling them to f*ck off. Not that that is ever going to happen, its easier to be polite when ending a relationship. You never know if you might need that some ones help again. Talking about Job centres, I am thinking of applying for a different realm of work, I like gardening, but would I want to be a gardener. I use it to deal with my life stresses, ideal perhaps, but would I want to garden my own garden? Imagine how chefs feel after a long days work in a kitchen. Going home and cooking yet more food in their own kitchen. Or do they get a kebab on the way home instead. I used to cook for a living and did so on a regular basis, eating the stuff I cooked at work, got a little tiresome after the first week. So kebabs ruled.

Funerals are probably best left alone, as are shops and supermarkets. If I find myself involved with retail again I may well kill myself. (After doing a lot of other people first) I abhor violence and would not want anyone to have to clean up after losing it. I love nature and animals, though the pig farm is not the sort of place I would want to involve myself with. Nor the egg company, they are too much like Auschwitz for animals, in fact the only difference between these places is the commodity involved. I cannot think of a more foul species on this beautiful planet we share. I dislike slugs with a passion, especially when I step on them in bare feet. Spiders, once my most feared and hated ‘opponent’ is now a favoured friend. Rats, Mice Cockroaches and other beastly things… Only ants are so violent and destructive towards members of their own species.

SOME BORING STUFF

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Hello good morning and all that, the sun is shining here and it looks to be the beginning of quite a nice day. It would of course be nicer if I found out how that application or applications went for the various jobs I have tried for went. I dislike being kept hanging around, it does nothing for my bowels and is generally tiresome. All the more so, when they said they said Tuesday. Perhaps it is simply easier to work for myself, it certainly skips DBS and the rest of it, which result in further delays and tiresomeness. There are several other things I would like on top of employment news, they have been mentioned previously, it would be pointless mentioning them now, it won’t help and might even result in sounding boring. I have decided to reopen a recently closed account of sorts and am now wondering if it was the right thing to do, sometimes this brain of mine drives me mad I will not mention what other humans can do to it. I honestly think being a cat would be much easier, especially that sleek black one who spends all her time on the windowsill sunbathing.

My boy Ninja is now cone less and his wounds have cleaned up nicely. He still looks a little patchy, but that is only cosmetic his coat will grow back soon enough. Right now he is enjoying the sun and pretending to ignore the Goldfish. I went to a job interview and it was a car crash, I hope to Christ I do not get the position though knowing my luck… Despite this and other setbacks I have managed several chuckles today cause I bought an old copy of a grown ups comic with lots of swearing and other amusements in it. The only thing it is missing is The Bum Faced Goats, The Bottom Inspectors and several others. One imagines they will be available in other issues of this fine publication. The one I introduced my Dad to as The Beano for grown ups.

What else has happened? Not much to be honest. It has been a pretty boring day so far and a pretty tiresome and drawn out week for that matter. The shit next door’s taste in noise has dropped down a couple of notches. These days it sounds like a bunch of angry black people ranting away at some stuff or other. trying to fathom what they are saying is beyond me, but there again do I really want to know.? I think a dogs fart has more harmony to it than that rubbish and I thank God I was born at a time when we actually had decent music to listen to. I have another interview in a short while, however I am sick of the damned things, that and filling in application forms, tweaking cv’s and a whole bunch of other like crap.

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I closed a web account today, I thought that it no longer served my purposes, or was otherwise not part of my current vibration. Sorry to sound pretentious, but that was the word on my lips (fingers) So that is what I typed. Upon further thinking, that web site does address my current needs, but due to various things, including self doubt, anxiety and disagreeing with some of the content used on that site. Plus uncertainty over the username, increasing angst and forgetting that maxim about making decisions, whilst under emotional instability, I killed my relationship with something, that had not been part of me for any serious length of time.

I have recently revisited another website with whom I distanced myself. What for do I hope to think it may ne different this time. Yes I do, but there again I think what’s the point? How long will it last? Or I repeating myself, I fully acknowledge, that yes I am. To hell with it, so what, fuck it and so what.

I shall do further decision making, based upon sound and sober judgement. I shall also look forward to writing earlier in the day and not just before I am planning to go to bed.

BURN IT ALL, CARBONISE EVERYTHING

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Today was spent mostly making a bonfire and burning a load of garden waste. In doing this I thoroughly enjoyed myself and look forward to the next lot of burning, when it happens. Fires are grand things, at least the ones I make here are. Some of them can be downright inconvenience, causing all sorts of trouble. Both of my old schools had serious fires at some point or another. It was not me, I promise you. One was a faulty television set. The other reputedly set by Auberon Waugh, was also blamed on the headmaster of the time, doing an insurance job. The founder of my first school, still floats a few inches above the floor through the Old House, marking the height difference between the old and new buildings. My old school is the village of Frensham in Surrey. If you want to know who the other gentleman I mentioned, Look here. My first school, started life as a circus. My last place was in the news for all the wrong reasons. The Monks managed to disgrace themselves. Several times actually.

When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze. For I am the LORD, your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Saviour; I give Egypt for your ransom, Cush and Seba in your stead. I am not stupid, I did not try to walk through the flames. I have tried it before and started to burn for my efforts. I think I have mentioned, the fire in the air raid shelter story before. It involved more than a little paraffin, and being on the wrong side of the conflagration in relation to the exit. Today did not require the use of Paraffin and I am writing later than usual.

I was planning, on writing about something, from scripture today, clearly I was not meant to. Not yet anyway.

BEASTING

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My nerves feel at breaking point and my mind is trying to spin me all sorts of strange and sometimes unpleasant ideas. One minute the idea of killing myself pops up, the next how peaceful death would be. Then some fucker comes along and reminds me off the person who finds the corpse, how are they going to feel… I want my cat to come home, I miss him dreadfully and want to hold him in my arms. The rest of it is down to Cyclothymia. I am currently experiencing a downward mood. It’s not fun, but I have to take the rough with the smooth. Happily it makes for something to write about.

I have been wanting to go buy garden shredders and chain saws, a result of doing the garden. I have done loads out side. chopped stuff back, cleared away waste. I have finally planted the vine, in the greenhouse. The flower pots are now in a neat pile at the back, they will be sorted in due course. The Tomatoes look and taste beautiful, far better than the crap in the shops. The bits I want to remove on the Nut Tree have been marked. Chopped up, it will make beautiful fire wood. As will the pile of stuff in the hollow. Something for the equinox perhaps. Blessed be.

I guess I shall be creating a missing notice this afternoon. That and or, going knocking on doors, with a photograph. There is no Karate training tomorrow evening, which means I can spend the day looking for him. Unless of course, he does what he did last time. Appearing as soon, as I start looking for him. So why am I writing this, when I could be out looking. Well TBH I told myself I would do the garden first, then blog and whilst being creative, would make a missing cat sign. All while, thinking about food. I am going to put something on to warm in a couple of minutes., then do the notice. All whilst listening to Roger Waters solo project: ‘The pros and cons of hitch hiking’ This version appears to be missing; 5.06 AM Every strangers eyes.

Action Man is as hard as

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When I was a youngster, I had an Action Man toy, who’s limbs could be pulled out of their sockets and left to dangle. \sometimes they fell off and would be reset by my Mum, a physiotherapist. This would be done with a rubber band and things would be as right as rain almost immediately. I went training last night and had my arms and legs pulled out of their sockets, twisted around and left feeling sore and bruised. Is this some kind of karma for my previous abuses of my plastic mannequin figure manufactured by Palitoy? If so, it has been carrying on long enough and today I can barely move without feeling like my leg or arm are falling off. I had a couple of Action Men , the latter one had ‘Eagle eyes’ that operated through a lever in the back of his head, he also had flock hair. Over the course of his glorious career, Action Man acquired a tank, a whole bunch of guns and a deep sea diving suit, the old fashioned type. Which he used to investigate the bottom of the garden pond. His attempts at parachuting out of the bedroom window, met with mixed results, my parents clearly thought it was a dangerous hobby, refusing to sanction this new hobby. To circumvent this drawback, I manufactured a ‘chute out of a section of fabric, tied string to the corners and around AM’s torso like I had seen in the films on tv, fully encouraging this new, exciting activity. Landing on solid concrete from about 30 feet up, without an adequate means of deceleration has it’s drawbacks. AM was hard as f*ck, he was so hard he had a scar running down his cheek.

Other news, or soon to be news. I am going to potter around in the garden today, enjoying the sunshine and doing garden related stuff. I may go for a cycle afterwards, this time taking the correct bunch of keys, so I can lock the bike up in town. I shall probably be getting a re-supply of my medication as well. Though that will depend on my dealer and his whereabouts. Happily I have a few days worth left and may well not bother. Running out does not bother me nearly so much as it used to. I really want to get some stuff up in the attic and some other stuff down. I shall be relaxing my mind away, from those things I do not get done and cheering myself on those that I complete.

I am surprised Action Man has not been ‘woked’ yet and being marketed as Trans Action Man. I think I may well have to write on this at a later time.

You ought to be an adult 18+ to read this

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If I have not mentioned it before, I have given up on painting. That is until I feel suitably inspired to do something new. Basically I have got myself into a rut, have reached an impasse and need a change of scenery. That is in part why I am writing, it provides a bit of clear water in which to come up to breathe. Gets me out of the corner downstairs sitting on the hard chair and procrastinating. Up here in the study, I can listen to documentaries and write at the same time, I have a comfy chair and it is warmer up here. The energy is different, more abundant and free flowing. There is no stink of oil paint , or the pong of turps I have no brushes to clean up either, but I ought to clean up my language.

That is why I am going to post a story or at least part of that story. Back in April I think, I was inspired enough to write a pornographic story. Actually I wrote several but this is the first one:

Jessica is a well educated young woman from Nottingham and she is recently out of work. Having been laid off due to the Covid that has resulted in many people having to stay or work at home. Jessica has rent to pay, credit cards to clear and the gas needs topping up for the week. The trouble is Jessica is skint, she has sod all income and is now eating into her savings. This is not what she planned out for and it irks her. 

Recently a friend told her how she was making money on one of them webcam websites, where people will pay to watch you  take your knickers down and play with yourself. It’s not ideal, Jessica mused but it could make money and I like masturbating in any case and money too.   She fiddled nervously as she entered her details on the website’s portal and thought of all the filthy perverts who will be watching her undress and play with her vagina. She feels sleazy and at the same time, incredibly horny. Sister Theresa the nun from her convent education, would have been livid at such an idea. Jessica was sure Sister had been a lesbian, with her huge bust and muscled arms. Tall, Statuesque and imposing and more catholic than the pope. Many of the girls in J’s group were in awe of her and some including J even found her rather sexy. Especially when she was taking them for sport and or swimming class. Fantasies abounded in that school about Sister T and what she wore. Some speculated lingerie and black lacey stuff. Others entertained she was in a lesbian relationship with the hockey coach.

As Jessica sorted out her new webcam and arranged the room as tidily as possible. She pondered over what she was going to do in her show, what she would do and not do. She so wanted to bend over in Doggy style  and slide that big red dildo into her cunny and bring herself to a shuddering orgasm. The bed would be the best place for that, all she would need was a simple home security and webcam set up. The whole idea  started to prove irresistible and she made a mental note to look at what was available. As she explored the website , she noticed all the other performers Noting that many came from countries like Colombia and Mexico, where people did not have much. Resulting in their offering far more than just straight sex.

I have written extensively on sex, webcams and a host of other like subjects over the years. Some of it is born from experience the rest comes from a creative imagination. The characters are made up, though the names might mean something personally. Anyway, other news now. My friend J is doing well, she has a nice place to live and is thriving. Ninja the cat has been bathed and the vine has been bought, ready to be transferred to a large planter in the green house. I hope to grow grapes.

The black cat is sleeping

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When I left home this morning, Lulu my cat was asleep on the desk. Getting home about an hour later she still is, having barely moved an inch. She is lazy, black and totally adorable. The people who live to the right of me are also black, have a dreadful taste in music listening to a genre that equates to processed noise repeated, ad nauseam. I got more than a little miffed last night and gave them serious verbal for the rubbish that was blaring out, way after hours. Next time it happens I think I may go and bang on their door, making my objections known that way instead. Either that or a dead rat nailed to the door. The pigs head is too much hassle to get hold of.

My trip to the local job fair was thwarted today by discovering I did not have my keys. The security guard at the venue could not store my bike, so I came home again. I have done enough in the way of job hunting this week in any case. I can write and perhaps do the garden instead. I want to plant a vine in the greenhouse, but first I have to buy the vine and create a happy environment for it to thrive in. This I am doing now, the internet is a place to learn all sorts of new things. Though personally I prefer looking in books, they are less confusing and generally have more accurate and concise information. Plus books benefit from being read, rather like cats benefit from being stroked. Humans strangely enough can benefit from reading books and stroking a cat has been proven to reduce peoples stress levels. Cats will, if given a chance sit on a pile of books and stare at you, challenging you to move them. Books will sit there challenging you to turn off the google machine and pick them up. Mosquito bites will on the other hand, drive you to distraction. Itch their way halfway around the world and drive you up the wall. Mosquitoes are awful creatures and ought be exterminated. Mosquito genocide sounds quite a good idea, but where would it stop? Frogs and other creatures would naturally protest in their way, Malaria and Yellow Fever would no longer keep populations in check. The bug repellent industry would take a hammering, perhaps its easier to keep the little bastards, they are here for a purpose after all. Just like the Human creatures that are in fact a whole lot worse.

Thou shalt not kill, sayeth the commandment. Does that mean we must not squash annoying insects that spread illness and disease, or ought we learn to live as better humans first? If we stopped having wars, ditched religion and a couple of other things, we might finally after a lengthy delay, create a better world to live in. The slaughterhouse is simply an extension of the battlefield, both are necessary evils until such a time as that we learn to live in peace, not only with other people, but with ourselves especially. The Mozzie that got me a couple of days ago was lucky, it lived to tell the tale. The next thing that aggrieves me, may not be so lucky. Two legs or many, I may just flatten the f*cker.

lying dogs and scum

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I recently got back from a weeks holiday in Woolacombe North Devon. We camped in a field, where it smelt of sewage. Essentially our camp site was fit for refugee’s and many have probably seen a lot better. Like old army barracks, which at least have a roof on them and four walls around. I lived in similar dwellings as an army cadet, it was all part of the adventure you know. Never once did any of complain, life at an English public school saw to that. It was almost luxury in comparison. That these people come here on their rafts, then have the audacity to complain about their accommodation, tells me one thing. They ought to all piss off back over the channel and and go back to where they came from. We have a homeless problem in this country and these idiots want a home? I will show them where home is and pint them in the right direction too.

This countries govt. are a bunch of self serving, spit licking liars and thieves. Hypocritical in the extreme, their actions make sensible, decent people want to vomit. P.M. Johnson was the pig that His predecessor was alleged to have fornicated with. I bet he squealed numerous times that day. I wonder if they passed him around between themselves, at that party. Can anybody who reads this blog, tell me their countries govt. are not a bunch of crooks? Some of them are even murderers. They just get other people to kill off their opponents, to ensure they stay in power remains unchecked. saying that Vladimir Putin makes a far better political leader than dear Boris. Maybe that is why outlets like the Bilderberg broadcasting Corporation, forget to mention Russia in the news these days. Just endless shit about the fashionable disease instead.

I HAVE NOT HAD THE VACCINE, NOT BECAUSE I DO NOT THINK VACCINES WORK. I HAVE HAD YELLOW FEVER, TYPHOID AND NUMEROUS OTHERS IN MY LIFE. I SIMPLY DO NOT TRUST OR BELIEVE THE GOVERNMENT.

Too many lies have been uttered by these people, too many greedy drug companies. Too much F.E.A.R false events appearing real. Study history and read what Dr. Goebbels said about the big lie. Ask yourselves, why is it called the Government. GOVERN: control , MENT: from the word mental: The Mind. The same reason why we have Parliaments, they speak to the mind parlez: from the French ‘to speak’

Other news: It is overly warm here at the moment, it is not being caused by global warming. But drink plenty of fresh water anyway and do not spend too long baking yourself out there. A little but often is way better, than too much for too long. Do not worry about the sun screen, wear a T shirt, the suns rays will happily penetrate that, giving you a healthy dose of Vitamin D whilst you are going about your business. Go out, enjoy the sun and fart in the direction of your countries government. I will be.,