On closing an account
I Like to do work with the Tarot, this system of divination can provide many insights into events and how one should go about seeking the best solution to matters that are on ones mind. Whilst this method has been in use since time immemorial it is also important to maintain an open mind and also accept that common sense may also have a part to play in ones decision making, you do not need a pack of cards to determine the outcome of approaching a venomous serpent!
So a week ago, I drew a few cards for my fiance and i and one card drawn was that of death the thirteenth card of the major arcana, it signifies in the final sense change, endings and upheaval not necessarily physical demise. We are both autistic me, with my fairer half having Asperger’s ( she takes things literally, sometimes very much so) As a result one does have to be careful how one phrases conversation, she took this card to signify the end of our relationship,or possibly so. I reassured her in my usual tactless fashion that this was not the case and she should not worry herself like this.
Three days ago, a lot of pent up frustration boiled over and I abruptly ended our beautiful partnership maybe it was the warm weather too much drink or simply not being very good at expressing myself emotionally, or a combination of all three whichever was responsible it was a horrible time and if i felt awful for all of this, then she felt it a hundred times worse.
Things are better now, we went to a concert in London last night and had a beautiful time, with one of my musical heroes, I think Jackie has now been converted too, even if we walked for hours in the heat and did not sit down or rest very much I have ADHD.
We are still an item and are planning the rest of our lives together and are speaking more than ever,whilst still enjoying the quiet times we have whilst pursuing our own unique autistic interests.
Did I forget to mention I closed down my old website to focus more on this one, we have also stopped drinking alcohol.